Modelling

Today I took part in a photoshoot in which, for probably the first time, I was the photographed rather than the photographer. I actually really enjoyed it and some reallyy lovely images were produced by the wonderful Magdalene.

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I am feeling very happy right now and I absolutely love it! For the first time in a long time I actually feel really proud of myself and it's such a great feeling! My FMP is finished and the final peices are wonderful, better than I ever could have imagined. Three of them have been printed 40x40 inches for my end of year show at college which makes me feel pretty damn good everytime I see them. Only thing that is a little sad is that it suddenly hit me today that I only have a few weeks left at that place before I leave forever and take the big step to uni. However I am extremely excited and cannot wait for September to come to start that new period of my life. I find the only way of expressing how happy I am on here with this - :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))). you get the idea.

I went for a lovely meal at an indian restuarant tonight with Erd. I absolutely love it at the place, it's so nice and the people are so welcoming, and all the food is half price between 6 and 9 - how could it get any better than that?! And of course I was in amazing company so it was pretty special. Ee I love that boy so much! I never knew I could feel like this, everything is just perfect and I feel like I could just explode with joy - how cheesy am I starting to sound! I also don't think I've used exclamation marks so much in one piece of writing like everr.

Thrice

I just booked one ticket to see Thrice at the electric ballroom in August. I am excited!

Motivation!

I have been severely lacking motivation to do anything lately, I've found myself sitting around thinking about doing things a hell of a lot, but never actually getting off my backside and getting things done. I don't know if it's so much being lazy, as much as that contributes to it, but I've just had such a lack of motivation that I can't bring myself to do anything. Well, today I finally got fed up of this and actually did something. So, armed with a black oil pastel and a piece of white paper, and using a picture of Erd as inspiration, I started doing a quick sketch of him. I'll be the first to admit it's not very good - I spent the whole of five minutes on it and didn't think too much about perspective etc, but generally I am quite pleased with myself as that's the first drawing of any kind I have done for over two years, since I did art at AS level. And I enjoyed it. I think I have avoided drawing for all this time as I always thought I was never really good at it, which I am most probably not, but I suppose what does that matter if I enjoy it and it's something that can be improved over time anyway? Oh I wish I had realised this such a long time ago!

Also, I have started doing exercises to tone up a little. It has been my aim to do this for months but being my lazy self, I never got round to it. Now for two days in a row I have kept it up and I aim to keep this going, it's at least one thing giving me some motivation and I really need it!

This weekend I am going to buy some camera film. Lots of it. And go out and take lots of photos. YES!

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I have decided to create one of these blogs as I have found myself writing less and less over the past months (well, years) - much the result of taking on an artistic subject which is much more practical based than written. I think back to when I used to do English Literature AS and sometimes wonder if I should have carried on with it, as I sometimes really really miss creative writing, but at the same time I know that the best choice I ever made was to take on photography. Never before have I been so excited about doing something and learning every little thing about it, all I can say is bring on uni and everything that comes with it! See, already I am rambling on, I was sure that I would not have a thing to write in this thing as it has been many years since I have done any sort of blog or diary. But I think that will now change. I also think that I will spend this summer doing some creative writing and lots of reading, something I have severely lacked doing for a very long time. Mainly down to me being lazy - this has to change!

The end of this week will mark the end of my ND, and I can honestly say I have thoroughly enjoyed every minute of the course and I am so incredibly grateful for everything that I have learnt. I am really going to miss printing my own pictures this summer but I will make up for that when I head to uni - and I may just invest in a digital SLR to keep me busy throughout the summer and to teach me some digital skillz. I really need to learn some.

Right, I'm off to have some punch that my boyfriend has so lovingly made. Adios!